September - August. // Tuesday, August 15
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3:49 PM |
These 2 months were crazy.
Hectic.
Blessed.
Experiencing is the word. It's true that you'll experience new things if you're braver. I totally proofed myself.
Mid September. Travelling. It was crazy and unexpectedly. You know how those talks you did with your friends about going somewhere far. Those exciting bickering that will eventually never happen. This time my friend and I made it happen. Since it was unprepared, we were blind walking the whole Bandung. The 5 days were crazy.
End of September. I was a committee of Asia's largest Pharmacy Conference, ACCP. I suddenly got a call from a senior asking if I could help him and take over his place in the committee. I was shocked and scared. I didn't know what it was at first until I did some google-ing. It was a huge experienced. I met great people, the ones who wrote my textbooks and the journals I always needed in class. I was in awe the whole week.
Early August. It was a summer school activity. I was a Liaison Officer for the participants. Always had this new things coming during the activity; new experience again. Met a new crazy friends who had been to lots of countries. Voleak has her passport stamped from different countries for doing some social works. She was determined to visit that gives not only her the benefits, but to other people too. She wasn't the serious type of person, she was still a young lady like myself. I learned the most from her.
All you need are some guts to do it.
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Leave the past where it belongs. // Saturday, August 12
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12:30 PM |
they say "don't look back" they say "it will only hurt you" but i still do even though i was dead in those days filling myself with nothing but grey it reminds me to not go there again never again once i had a friend. we had the same problems - what kept us stay as friends. one day she decided to be stronger one day she found her light but of course i haven't i hold on to her, so she would stay with me in the dark scaring her how rainbows aren't real birds won't sing balloons don't fly playgrounds are empty sad rain pours and moving on is actually just opening the same door "you'll be dissapointed again" "you'll fall again". i can't believe i still call myself a friend, that time. |
Sometimes it's not permanent // Monday, July 10
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2:42 PM |
 "...he was breathing heavily as his chest rises and falls quickly and i'm sure i saw a puddle of tears in his eyes. He sculptured his right fist into a tight clenched and i know that he's about to blow any time. I watched him concernedly. I was right, he let out a loud sigh, took the car key and stormed out of the house. I had to run to catch up to him. "stop it! where the hell you think you're going?" Not looking me at all he says-in a very loud way, "MOVE!" I was taken aback, to be honest i was actually scared. Being together for a while has taught me many sides of him but not this one; this scary one. I wanted to run away but I held myself together and gathered my courage. "try me.." I dared him. "please...move." He speaks in a sigh which i can barely hear. He wipes his face hastily with his both sleeves but I caught it, I caught a tear fell from his cheek. I quickly gave him a hug. I hug him tightly making sure he realises that i am here for him, I won't leave him. Then he replied my hug and hug me tightly, he buried his head on my neck-shoulder and I realised he was crying. I whispered him that it's alright. He hides even deeper in my shoulder while i can feel his body trembles. We hugged for a good long time. Day by day I keep on learning things about him, this person can be very scary and also be fragile. Too fragile that he can easily fall and break into shattered of pieces if someone doesn't hold him together. I'm glad i'm the one who could hold him and put his broken pieces together. Now I'm glad he's stronger alone |
whats real won't fade away // Thursday, June 22
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10:16 AM |
 This feeling, this voice, this eyes showed how much i care. I won't let go. Even though
"If there's hello, then there's bound where we have to say goodbye"
but i'll try hard as i can to longer the goodbyes.
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start over // Sunday, April 19
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8:04 PM |
Assalmualaikum. Hey guys, its been half a year I haven't post anything here, seriously thought of continuing my updates and try to regularly post something. Ofcourse, i was lazy, plus i don't really think i had suitable time to update my blog. Now that i realized, i actually miss typing on my laptop and post on my blogs. i'll probably |