they say "don't look back"
they say "it will only hurt you"
but i still do
even though i was dead in those days
filling myself with nothing but grey
it reminds me to not go there again
never again

once i had a friend.
we had the same problems - what kept us stay as friends.
one day she decided to be stronger
one day she found her light
but of course i haven't
i hold on to her, so she would stay with me in the dark
scaring her how
rainbows aren't real
birds won't sing
balloons don't fly
playgrounds are empty
sad rain pours
and moving on is actually just opening the same door
"you'll be dissapointed again"
"you'll fall again".

i can't believe i still call myself a friend, that time.